Friday, May 23, 2014

Sightings on the Edge of the World, #1

I was sitting in the left hand turn lane at 8:30 at night, right next to my building, almost home, just waiting to turn the corner, listening to the blinker, when the woman with the tomahawk caught my eye.  White, middle-aged, short blond hair, plumpish, dressed in ¾-length navy slacks and a red cardigan.  She looked like she could be going to the church social, but here she was crossing the coast highway in the evening.  Hardly anyone walks here on the coast road even in broad daylight, and no one walks at night.  Least of all women carrying tomahawks.

I was so tired and everything is so disorienting to me here, I almost let it go by, but then I thought, “Was that really a tomahawk?”  I looked again more closely.  It was definitely a bone handle, like an antler, and there were definitely feathers sticking out from the end of it.  Maybe it was more of a ceremonial feather-duster, cut-through-the-thickness of ridiculousness, shamanic wand kind of thing.  But it was definitely an antler with feathers.  She was dressed like she could be carrying a pie across the street to the neighbor. 

Maybe she was going home too, returning from the ceremony.  Her walk was brisk and purposeful.

The moon shone.  The pine trees stood dark against the sky.  The air was cool.  The ocean glowed at the end of the block.


The light turned green, and I drove home in wonder.

Monday, January 20, 2014

In the Name of Love: For Martin Luther King, Jr.

Happy Martin Luther King, Jr. Day!

I remember when they integrated the schools in Zachary, Louisiana.  I was in the 7th grade.  We were scared.  Scared it would bring us down, tarnish us, that some of the black would rub off, taint us permanently--ashamed to admit  those feelings, and proud of our willingness to go to an integrated school-- a big brer rabbit-tar baby ball of confused, conflicted thoughts and feelings.  At least, that’s how it was for me.  I can’t really speak to anyone else’s feelings, because we never talked about it. 

Some of my friends who I’d been in school with up to that point went instead to the white-only private schools that suddenly sprung up like mushrooms.  The rest of us were moved from what had been the white junior high-high school, with the big white columns on the main street in town, oak trees hung with moss in the front, to the former black junior high-high school on a back road along the outskirts in the poor part of town, lined with big ditches, back behind the railroad tracks, with trees that looked like overgrown weeds. 

To have to go to the black school, with the black principal, in the black part of town—oh, the indignity, the shame.  The first few weeks of school some white boys from the 8th grade trashed the place, but that just hurt and shocked people, increasing the shame and bad feelings, and after that everyone behaved.  We were 50-50 black and white students and teachers, or as close as the school board could arrange it, and teachers arranged the classrooms so that the seating was equally integrated too.

My favorite class was Chorus.  Miss Gloria taught us, and she was young and beautiful and enthusiastic.  I was part of a sextet, 3 black girls and 3 white girls, and we felt so cool and proud of ourselves.  We liked to link arms and walk around, proclaiming we were a "sextet"!  Emphasis on the word “sex.” 

The highlight was when we got to go to LSU to perform at the State Choral Contest.  Denise Kent, a white girl, whose single mother was cool, invited us all over to her house to practice.  Imagine, 3 black girls and 3 white girls in the same house, singing—at night, in Zachary, La.  I think we were going to have a slumber party, but some mothers thought better of it—didn’t want to push it too much.  It was the first time I had ever seen such a thing or heard of anyone doing anything like that: simply being in each other’s houses as friends and fellow humans.  The daring of it took my breath away.  I felt absolutely on the edge of the known universe. 

Once we got to Baton Rouge, we stepped outside of the known world altogether.  LSU was a hippy haven in those days, with head shops, bars, and dives all along the edge of campus.  Pictures of Jimi Hendrix and Jim Morrison stared out at us from windows draped with beaded curtains.  Incense filled the streets.  We knew we were free.  We linked arms, integrating ourselves--black, white, black, white, black, white--and strutted our stuff in our matching uniforms—short burgundy skirts and vests with white blouses.  Walking out in public, together, black and white, singing our songs.

Nothing was ever the same after that.

Thank you, Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., and all the people who made such moments and many more for many people possible.  Thank you, Miss Gloria, Mrs. Kent, and all the members of the sextet, wherever you are, whoever you are now.  In the Name of Love.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year! May your year be shiny and new!

(From Del Mar Beach on New Year's morning)

Love, Eberly

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Tonight’s Sunset


Tonight the sun set over the ocean like a slice of big bright red cherry pie, juices flowing and spreading across the horizon.

Across the way, the moon shone full and silver in a melting Japanese blue sky.

Both were streaked with clouds--

Yellow-gold for the moon,

Peach and blue and pink and gray for the ocean.

A tall Torrey Pine split the moon shimmering through the dark spiky branches.

Both stood whole.

Dark clouds streaked above the ocean like smoke flowing sideways from a chimney.

The whole sky like one big “on the other hand.”

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Things I Miss About NYC


Conversations with people
The grit, grit, grittiness of the city, the sidewalks, the air
People who talk to people
People who notice people

Granite boulders
Pocket parks
Elm trees
London plane trees
Sweet gum trees

Beech trees
 All kinds of people

All kinds of trees
Winter

Summer
Fall

Waterfalls, Fountains, Rivers
Central Park

Grand Central Station
Union Square Farmer’s Market

Indian Food
Burmese Food

Angelica’s Kitchen
Thai Food

Roma Pizza
Van Leuwen’s Ice Cream

CafĂ© Mogador Monday's after meditation
Bach Vespers

Organ concerts at the Little Church Around the Corner
The entire East Village, especially my meditation group

The West Village
Brooklyn artists  (Areta and Peter)

Beautiful old buildings, even ugly old buildings—just old buildings
Crowded sidewalks

Buses and subways that come every few minutes
Subways

People on subways, in stations, on sidewalks, everywhere, everywhere
Cabs

Looking every night at the Empire State Building to see what color it is
Lying in bed, on the sofa, on the floor, and looking at the Empire State Building

Standing on my balcony and looking across the urban canyon
Watching people party on a balcony a block away

Walking, walking, walking the streets
Vast old upper west side apartments

Tiny little east village apartments
Huge east village illegal-sublet apartments (I’m talking to you, Sadie!)

Bathtubs in kitchens
$2000/month tiny apartments with bathtubs in kitchens—or no bathtubs-- and a five-floor walk-up

The Upper West Side
Riverside Park

Central Park West
West End Avenue

Tibetan shops
Tibetan sales people—the best in the world!

Rockefeller Center Ice Rink
Beautiful doors

The 19th century
Dry cleaners, grocery stores, nail shops, banks, and cell phone stores every block

French food
Rasa Yoga

Zabar’s
The East River

The Hudson River
Stuyvesant Cove Park

Ukrainian shops
Free ferry to Ikea in Red Hook

NY Public Library
Bryant Park

Ping pong tables in Bryant Park
Luxurious public restrooms in Bryant Park

Christmas shopping bazaars
Doormen

Fairway grocery stores
Grand Central food court

Sunday flea market/farmer’s market on Columbus Avenue
Chocolate chip cookies from Levain Bakery

Soft Bavarian pretzels from Blue Moon Bakery
Beautiful yoga students and sweet, gentle yoga at the Hamilton Senior Center and JCC

Marymount Manhattan College
2 Penn Plaza

IBI
Minar

Statue of Gandhi
Statue of Gertrude Stein

Tango dancers on west side pier
Julie’s backyard—the only one I knew

People who ask me questions about myself, even if it’s just how much I pay for rent
People who want me to ask them questions about themselves, even if it’s just how much they pay for rent

Everyone I ever knew in NYC

Friday, November 22, 2013

Addendum to the Previous List

More Things I See in California That I Didn't See in NY:

Seagulls sitting in the middle of an empty road staring into space
Empty roads

Rabbits quietly nibbling grass on an open hillside
Open hillsides

And on a rainy day, I'm the only person I see holding an umbrella

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Things I See in California That I Didn’t See in NYC


Snails on sidewalks

Boxer dogs

Men in their sixties with bright blue painted toenails  

Sand on my windows

Giant birds of paradise

Poison ivy growing in cultivated shrubbery

Palm trees

Bougainvillea

Torrey Pine trees

Dog poop all over the place

Beach birds eating busily in the sand and skittering with the tides

Pelicans flying overhead

Surfers

Wetsuits

People gathering on the cliffs to watch the sunset over the ocean

My cat walking on a leash

Lines and lines of waves