Monday, January 20, 2014

In the Name of Love: For Martin Luther King, Jr.

Happy Martin Luther King, Jr. Day!

I remember when they integrated the schools in Zachary, Louisiana.  I was in the 7th grade.  We were scared.  Scared it would bring us down, tarnish us, that some of the black would rub off, taint us permanently--ashamed to admit  those feelings, and proud of our willingness to go to an integrated school-- a big brer rabbit-tar baby ball of confused, conflicted thoughts and feelings.  At least, that’s how it was for me.  I can’t really speak to anyone else’s feelings, because we never talked about it. 

Some of my friends who I’d been in school with up to that point went instead to the white-only private schools that suddenly sprung up like mushrooms.  The rest of us were moved from what had been the white junior high-high school, with the big white columns on the main street in town, oak trees hung with moss in the front, to the former black junior high-high school on a back road along the outskirts in the poor part of town, lined with big ditches, back behind the railroad tracks, with trees that looked like overgrown weeds. 

To have to go to the black school, with the black principal, in the black part of town—oh, the indignity, the shame.  The first few weeks of school some white boys from the 8th grade trashed the place, but that just hurt and shocked people, increasing the shame and bad feelings, and after that everyone behaved.  We were 50-50 black and white students and teachers, or as close as the school board could arrange it, and teachers arranged the classrooms so that the seating was equally integrated too.

My favorite class was Chorus.  Miss Gloria taught us, and she was young and beautiful and enthusiastic.  I was part of a sextet, 3 black girls and 3 white girls, and we felt so cool and proud of ourselves.  We liked to link arms and walk around, proclaiming we were a "sextet"!  Emphasis on the word “sex.” 

The highlight was when we got to go to LSU to perform at the State Choral Contest.  Denise Kent, a white girl, whose single mother was cool, invited us all over to her house to practice.  Imagine, 3 black girls and 3 white girls in the same house, singing—at night, in Zachary, La.  I think we were going to have a slumber party, but some mothers thought better of it—didn’t want to push it too much.  It was the first time I had ever seen such a thing or heard of anyone doing anything like that: simply being in each other’s houses as friends and fellow humans.  The daring of it took my breath away.  I felt absolutely on the edge of the known universe. 

Once we got to Baton Rouge, we stepped outside of the known world altogether.  LSU was a hippy haven in those days, with head shops, bars, and dives all along the edge of campus.  Pictures of Jimi Hendrix and Jim Morrison stared out at us from windows draped with beaded curtains.  Incense filled the streets.  We knew we were free.  We linked arms, integrating ourselves--black, white, black, white, black, white--and strutted our stuff in our matching uniforms—short burgundy skirts and vests with white blouses.  Walking out in public, together, black and white, singing our songs.

Nothing was ever the same after that.

Thank you, Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., and all the people who made such moments and many more for many people possible.  Thank you, Miss Gloria, Mrs. Kent, and all the members of the sextet, wherever you are, whoever you are now.  In the Name of Love.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year! May your year be shiny and new!

(From Del Mar Beach on New Year's morning)

Love, Eberly